I’ve been a bit restless lately…and haven’t really understood why. Normally, I fly from one project to another with childlike, enthusiastic glee.
Nowadays, with the turmoil at work, I’m not really sure anything I’m doing there matters at all. They’re going to tear it all out and “outtask” it, and nobody has clearly defined just what that means yet. Basically, the things I need to work on may not even exist by the end of the year. I find it frustrating and disturbing to pour effort and creativity into things that we may not keep/need/use.
Not to mention, if I’m one of the things that gets tossed out, that the long term technological status of the company becomes completely irrelevant to me.
But it’s not just that.
I’ve got scads of writing to do. Literally dozens of chapters for a new Life Is a Road book are roughed in and are in need of fleshing out. Storm Rider is haunting me too…simply begging to be written/completed.
I’ve also got drawing to do for Steel Horses, several guest comics/fan art I want to tinker on, and an art class starting next week.
Hmmm….I should probably be looking for a job too.
And, oh yeah, I’ve got a box of parts in the garage for The Dragon. 85,000 miles can add up to some wear and tear, and I always keep her (mechanically) in tip-top condition.
The personal projects are more important to me than work at the moment, but I’m not really getting much done and I’m not sure why not.
Depressed? Nah. I don’t tend to get depressed. I’ve got my demons to battle just like everybody else, and there are moments when they seem to get the upper hand, but that battle is never one I’ve shied away from.
Maybe it’s a lack of sleep. I never seem to have time to get enough. I’d work on that…but I’m working an extra day this weekend due to a system upgrade. Hmmm. Come to think of it, I worked an extra day last week too.
I think I need to spend more time on the personal stuff. Some days off would be good. Maybe a long ride followed by some time writing and drawing.
Oh, yeah…just a note…in my past this restlessness…this boredom…has always precipitated my making some sort of major change.
I need time to ponder.
Yep. I think a ride should do it.
Y’all (technical term) be safe…or at least fun.
I’ll see you on the road.