I posted this picture a year ago.

On the left…60″ jeans. (!)
On the right…44″ jeans (and a shirt that’s three sizes too big).

I am...diminished.

I am…diminished.

I’m only 18 pounds down from that (right picture) today. At least I haven’t gained any…and I am at my college weight.

I need to get back on it…I’ve a long way to go…so long in fact…that I’ll never reach the goal others have declared is where I have to be.

It can be discouraging.

This is…hands down…the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

A couple years ago I could not put this belt around me. Now I’ve had to punch about 15″ (1″ spacing) of holes in it to wear it.

I couldn't wear this a couple years ago.

I couldn’t wear this a couple years ago.

The “tail” now reaches all the way around to the center of my back. I am…somewhat stubbornly…refusing to cut off the extra…just as a marker to see where I’ve been.

Folks ask me what I’m doing…what plan? What diet? What drugs? What surgery?…and it’s none of that.

The easy, short answer is:
1) Never eat anything I like.
2) Be hungry ALL the time.
3) Work my ass off.

“That doesn’t sound healthy.” some will say. And they are correct.

There is NO healthy way to lose weight, particularly if you need to lose more than 10% of your highest body weight (I’ve lost 30%). Your hope is that the benefits outweigh (heh) the penalties.

Your body does not want to lose weight. It will fight you at every turn.

But as I said…that’s the simple answer…and the least of the problems.

The more complex answer is that for those prone to easy weight gain (yep, there are genetic and other factors), it’s not so much about the diet…as it is about the unrelenting, complete, and utter concentration…to the exclusion of all else…on the process and the goal. All day. Every day. No matter what else demands your attention.

Those of us that tend to really “get into” our tasks, whether those are work, family, hobbies, education, etc…have to change our focus away from those things. A moment’s distraction and you’ve undone yourself.

…and those other things in your life are jealous taskmasters. Work, family, friends, your health, life’s goals…well…they are not so forgiving of your shift of attention.

THAT…is what makes it so difficult.

I’ll see you on the road.


Daniel Meyer

You can read more about my fitness journey here.

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3 Responses to Diminshed

  1. sevesteen says:

    You might want to look at Joel Fuhrman’s Eat to Live. August 20 I was 257, today I’m 223. The short version is vegan, unlimited non-starchy vegetables, unlimited fruit, unlimited beans and legumes. Some nuts, some “fatty” vegetables like avocado. No processed grain, no processed sugar, no processed oil, no artificial sweeteners.

    No calorie counting and no more hunger than I had before I started. Unlimited really means unlimited–I use a mixing bowl for my salad filled to the top, a pound and a half of fruit for breakfast (usually in a smoothie) and enough food for lunch that I spend most of the 35-40 minutes chewing. It’s big changes, but so far they haven’t been that hard, and well worth even the short term benefits.

    • sevesteen says:

      Followup–Middle of July I made it down to 180. That’s what I weighed in high school. Now holding at 179 +/- 2 pounds. 85+ pounds gone in about 10 months. 2x shirts to medium (I’d a thunk being 6’1″ would be enough for large regardless of weight) and 32″ pants. My taste buds have changed drastically–lots of things I used to love are inedibly salty or sweet. I don’t crave anything in particular, and if I’m hungry, I eat until I’m not, just limited to the right foods. Based on Penn Jillette’s version of this diet now that I’m down to target weight I can go off diet for a full day about every 2 weeks. I don’t particularly care, often go longer than that–and if I could get decent diet compliant food at a restaurant I’d rarely go off diet. For me at least, it is much, much easier to limit what I eat than how much.

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