Head games…part the ?

So…between the painful shoulder and work stuff causing a bunch of lost sleep, I woke to the alarm at around 4:30am this morning and decided a workout just wasn’t in me.

Wearing myself to the very edge of endurance simply won’t help my fitness…or any other thing I’m responsible for. Knowing what’s a real limit and what’s a head game is a challenge, but this truly was a fog of physical and mental exhaustion.

A few more hours sleep should help. I figured I could hit our small work-gym at lunch and get some action.

Good plan.

At least part of me liked it anyway.

I’ve mentioned the head games on a couple occasions…the hardest thing about the fitness game is that battle right between your ears…the head game. The decisions.

If I don’t do a morning workout I usually hit the work gym around 1 pm…it wasn’t long before that the head games started…

My thoughts…the brain battling itself…

excuse: Man…I’ve got this [work thing] going on…
answer: …and you get lunch breaks just like everybody else.

excuse: I really need to prepare for this meeting…
answer: …dude! It’s 4 hours away and it’s no big deal anyway!

excuse: They’re about to take the gym apart for the building move.
answer: …but it’s STILL THERE right now.

excuse: I am a bit fatigued…
answer: …not like anything you felt this morning…and you KNOW you’ll feel better after the workout.

excuse: And that shoulder is really bothering me…
answer: …so work the damn legs you twit!

excuse: The room’s probably busy…
answer: …it never has been before. Go see.

excuse: I forgot my mp3 player. I’ve GOTTA have music…
answer: …so stream it on your phone.

And on and on and on.

Part of the issue is that truly…unlike many other aspects of my life, there are no immediate consequences if I miss a workout. The time, expense, and effort I apply to this still seem selfish to me, and I expect, given my upbringing and work ethic, that they always will.

All this work to do…and I’m AT work…and I’m gonna run off to play in the exercise room.

Sometimes my work-ethic can be a real asshole.

So what did I do?

At 1pm I locked my workstation, grabbed my stuff, and hit the gym.

I showed up…I did the thing.

Good thing I made it non-negotiable.

Daniel Meyer

You can read more about my fitness journey here.

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3 Responses to Head games…part the ?

  1. sevesteen says:

    On the one hand, your progress is amazing, your dedication admirable. Lots of parallels to my path. In particular, making a decision once is easier than making it over and over. For me at least “I don’t eat that anymore, period” once is a lot easier in total than “maybe just a little?” over and over and over.

    On the other hand, I’m afraid that your story will make someone think “if I don’t have that much dedication, I’ll fail”. That’s not true. If they can find the right plan and stick to it a surprising amount of progress can be made, surprisingly quickly and easily. I decided “I’ll try this for a month and evaluate. If it works and doesn’t completely suck I’ll go on”. It was a chore to figure out what to eat–but that got easier, and it didn’t suck. And it worked far better than I expected. I would have been happy with a pound a week, I got 3-4 instead. Would have been happy with not being constantly hungry, not constantly craving the things I gave up–I spent less time hungry, and barely missed what I gave up. There are probably better ways than mine–but it worked, I could do it, and I got there. Try something. If it works keep it, if it doesn’t try something else. You aren’t likely to find a free lunch, but there are some incredible bargains.

    • Daniel Meyer says:

      Good points…to a point…and I intend a later post detailing why the food thing isn’t as much a pain as folks think it will be (it’s also supremely important)…

      Thing is…you DID get the dedication right…not to a particular plan…but to the PROCESS itself (try and evaluate, if that sucks, try something else).

      That dedication is at some point required. Or at least arranging it so that the dedication is automatic or non-negotiable. It’s more than habit…and the “lifestyle change” tripe that is bandied about is such an oversimplified bit of word candy that the folks that use it pretty much identify themselves as having never fought or even had…a fitness problem.

      The reality is that MOST folks do fail…there’s a multi-billion dollar “magic bullet” industry peddling products and plans and supplements based on the absolutely dismal success rates in this endeavor.

      I myself failed utterly and completely…for 35 years…until I understood HOW to make the “dedication” happen. How to make it non-negotiable. That’s what I hope to illustrate here…

      Of course…I’m blogging this as I go along…the process and feelings and such as they happen…rather than afterwards when I could filter out what may be off message…but the struggles are real…and I still say today…it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

      …and I’m not talking about the physical work…


      • sevesteen says:

        I suppose what I’m arguing about is the amount of dedication required for substantial results. You need some dedication, but really good results (at least for weight loss) are possible without superhuman effort. The real problem is sorting out good advice from bad. (The food pyramid and most nutrition advice from the government is bad). I’m convinced that with good advice most people can lose weight with a reasonable amount of effort. With bad advice it’s possible, but too hard to be realistic for most people.

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